Moody world...

People say I’m moody; but it isn’t me, it’s the world that’s moody - constantly changing every day, hitting me with the unexpected. If only I knew what to expect, if only the world would be the same and predictable each day. If the world was consistent then I’m sure my mood would be consistent to match. But it isn’t; so I find myself having to adapt to the mood of the world around me.

Let me try to explain. This morning I got up to the music of the wind against my window and despite the heavily curtained room I knew that outside the day was grey, either raining or at least heavily fearful with the threat. So the sound of the wind and the scudding grey clouds set the tone for the day and, with the greyness I knew lurked outside, so was my mood.

Walking along the road, wind blowing at my heels, air heavy with that dank greyness of another dank grey day, I began to notice the minutiae of the world around me. A leaf tumbling along the path, the way that people walked all hunched and pocketed huddling from the heavy breeze, a torn poster on a window flapping its wave at me. Well, one thing leads to another and shot by shot the film in my head turned black and white, French, and sentimentally sad – it was all I could do not to search for a red balloon floating in the sky above.

Strangely, despite my ability to focus on the incredible detail around me and put it all together as what I like to think is a big picture, I hardly ever recognise the players moving within it even when I know them. So I may well have passed people I know quite well without any acknowledgement at all providing more evidence of my moodiness some might say. Truth is though; I’m so caught up in observing the mood of the world that I hardly ever see the people moving through it

So to my point, if there is one: If I cut you dead in the street, it isn’t because I’m ignoring you, or that I’m being moody – it’s just that I’m caught up in the mood of the world, listening to its music and looking to the sky for a single red balloon - and I'm sticking to it.