The first day of astronomical spring and with it came
sunshine and warmth. I felt as if I wanted to go out looking for skipping lambs,
wade through drifts of golden daffodils, and go searching for Blodeuwedd the
Celtic spring goddess, created by magic from nine spring flowers. Instead I
spent it at the hospital and worrying about Luna who, uncharacteristically,
went walkabout for six hours when normally she checks in every forty minutes or
so. On the Joan front progress is slow. She’s a tiny bit more able to open her
eyes and is trying to speak a little, but it’s impossible to hear her words and
she hardly seems like Joan at all.
Somewhere between my cat and Joan something in me got lost
as well and even the sunny day couldn’t lift my spirits. I hate the uncertainty
of it all even though my rational mind knows that there are no certainties.
Each time Luna goes out I know that she might never return and looking at Joan
this afternoon I know that is true of her as well.
I did see daffodils and lambs in the fields on the way back
from the hospital, but Blodeuwedd remained elusive despite my muttering of the
ancient words: ‘Nine powers of nine flowers. Nine powers in me combine nine
buds of plant and tree. Long and white are my fingers as the ninth wave of the
sea.’
So that’s my first day of spring – a missing cat, a missing
mother in law, a missing goddess, and a very grumpy me.
Lindsey Messenger on FB
ReplyDeletePleased to hear Joan is making ... All be it slow....progress.
Oh naughty Luna, she has got that Spring feeling... I know I worry if Remy stays out for long. He is so timid he likes to be in all day and go out about 3am ( yes guess who he wakes!!!) when all is quiet!!
Andrew Height
DeleteI'm really not sure it is progress Lindsey and it would need a huge improvement for it to be bearable for her. Even in the state she's in she can still manage a few tears.
Lindsey Messenger
DeleteSuch a worrying time for you and Gaynor
Andrew Height
DeleteSure is Lindsey. Tiring too with the backwards and forwards to the hospital. I know Gaynor is feeling pretty demoralised and the frustration at being able to do nothing about this mess is getting to us both.
Tim Preston on FB
ReplyDeleteThere are no certainties ............... oh you said that
Lorna Gleadell on FB
ReplyDeleteAt least the wine didn't go missing !!
Andrew Height
DeleteIt has now.
Anne Donaldson on FB
ReplyDeleteYou're in limbo and there's nothing worse x
Gloria Brown on FB
ReplyDeleteFeel so sorry for you both, in this terrible whirl all the time, hang onto hope