I sometimes wake in the morning to find words written on my
hand. Often they are fleeting thoughts jotted down the evening before in an
attempt to capture them before they slip away. I know that tomorrow those
thoughts will be gone; lost in a mixture of sleep and wine and with no paper to
hand skin is the thing – I always have a pen in my pocket.
Other times these jottings are the plots of dreams from the
night before which, half awake, I scribble onto my skin to remind me of the
tale that was unfolding in my head just before I awoke. Of course rarely do
either make any sense the next day – just what does ‘we a cham glagotory’ mean?
Even when I can decipher my handwriting, what seemed so
profound the night before - so worth pursuing - usually seems flat and
uninteresting in the cold light of day. I’m sure that the television programmes
of the past seemed fresh and meant something to the viewers of the time, but do
I really want to expand upon that premise? Just where does it go from there? So
why did I write it on my hand in the first place?
Occasionally though I pluck something out of the air or
ether that is worth building upon, although I often struggle to remember even a
quarter of the thoughts that were running through my head at the time. The
‘notes’ folder on my computer is full of documents transcribed from my hand.
Single lines which read ‘cabbage patch doll life’ or ‘A-Z of alphabets’.
All this stuff caught up in the lines and pocks of an aging
hand; forgotten not once, but again and again until I don’t know where they
came from or even who wrote them. Yes, despite my attempts at reminders it can
be a little disconcerting. It’s particularly worrying when I find something on
my hand that I don’t remember writing at all. Sometimes I wonder if another me
wrote on my hand whilst I was asleep, tattooing my palm with his thoughts not
mine and leaving me to find them.
Sometimes there are whole missals: ‘Can you hold this for a
while? It’s a homespun pile. It’s my blue guitar and when you touch it, it
dies.” No, I don’t know either. I don’t even play guitar, let alone own one and
most of these words aren’t even mine they’re someone else’s.
It happened again last night and when I awoke this was written
upon my hand. I think that it’s verse. Maybe it’s mine, maybe not. How can I
tell?
Sometimes at night
Late,
(Late in the bottles),
I think
Of what if and what offals
And the guts of my life slips.
(Twenty pence a pound).
As I sniff at the troughfulls
Or truffles.
It depends on the stand
And the day
And how I may
(Or how many I have to say).
My woffal.
Pete Bevins on FB
ReplyDeleteHave you ever had to typex your tinkle as a result?
11 hours ago · Like · 1
DeleteAndrew Height
Pete, I have painted my whole life with tippex.
Gloria Brown on FB
ReplyDeleteI wrote on my hands to cheat at exams!
Andrew Height
DeleteMe too Gloria, and I scratched on my ruler. Mind you, cheats never prosper ;-))
Nick Jones on FB
ReplyDeleteYou need Evernote in your life.