These days I think I like the idea of snow more than snow
itself. Gone are the days that I’d rush to build a snowman, start a snowball
fight, go rushing down the hill on a sledge. I still try, but the cold soon
defeats me and my joints aren’t quite what they used to be. I used to build
igloos, places where small daughters could play Eskimo. There was a time I’d
fearlessly ride the tiniest tin tray down the steepest hill. I’d rough and tumble in a snowball fight, taking a well
thrown ball of snow compounded ice in the face, laughing until I fell over.
These days I simply like to watch the snow fall through the
window, the roar of a log fire behind me and the twinkling light of candles to
make it all nostalgic. What lies. Not white but the blackest black. I pour myself
another and then a final glass of wine and then a final final glass. I think, remembering. And then another, and
just one more.
The snow was still falling when I stumbled the wooden hill
to bed. As I went deep into the covers I remember thinking that I wished the
snow would fall and fall, covering the world in a blanket of white, then fall
some more, and on and on until every mark that had ever been made were covered
in a pristine white. Everything gone; disappeared beneath the suffocating
whiteness of a winter’s night and everything made pure.
When I awoke this morning the snow was gone - not my memories though.
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